why is it so?

I'll hold myself leaning my back against the ropes staring at the sky.A tear falling from my eye,.wondering what went wrong and why..The rain keeps falling, and you're heart may call.I may stand here shrouded in darkness lost in the cold.I'll give you everything.. I have to hold and maybe I won't mess up this time.I should have learned from this rain.Guess I love this pain.
I'll slide my hand along the screen.Staring at the serenity of the evergreen.Silent sobs slip secretly in this madness.Wound up tighter than a guitar string.Always, Always blamed for everything.
We are the cause we are the reasonWe are the fear and we are the reason.. 

miss you maa miss you baba

miss you maa baba..i miss you..miss the early morning when papa would come and say..wake up..bt i would just ignore..half an hour later mumy starts yelling.."baba koto ghumobi?"finally i would wake up with a lazy body..soft devotional or rabindrasangeet playing in the background..maa would come and say.."Jaaaa Brush kor" the clock tells its 9.30AM but maa would make me feel as if its 11:30AM..she will say Its soooo late for bfast..why do you sleep so much..and tell me what keeps you awake till 3 in the morning? i would pretend i am barely interested..finally after bath when i go for Puja..she would be again after me..look at yourself you've kept God waiting for so long..why cant you wake up early..I would reply come on maa did he come down and tell you the timings when he would like to be worshipped..miss you maa..I miss papa waiting for me with a plate in his hand and eyes glued to TV..maa would be after him for a change..how many times i have told you not to keep the food waiting..All peace from papa :) miss you.. then comes the best part of the day.. moving out to market with papa..i miss you..maa has a different reason for sending me along with him..She sends me as papa's reminder tool..but when we both forget to get something..its definitely nothing less than a house on fire and maa as the torch bearer :D miss you maa..i miss the lunch with maa baba..i miss the afternoon movie with papa i miss the candid evening chats with papa..i miss you maa baba..want to write and write but my fingers tremble..love you maa baba..my reason to live..

23rd October- Happy Birthday Life!

Its 23rd October..not just another day in the calendar, I have missed 23, 23rd October in my life so far..I dont want to miss a single one further..Its a day which tells me that you are blessed..Its a day which tells me God is kind enough..Its a day which makes me feel proud..Its a day which makes me the happiest on earth, Its a day which tells me that I have got the most special one to cherish..Its a day which tells me..With time memories may fade away..words might get lost.. but this day will never leave me..coz this day just loves me..truely deeply and unconditionally..I was born on 25th June but i strated breathing on 23rd October..Its her day..Its my Shona's day..Its her Birthday.. Life is full of ups and downs its a roller coaster, But few things never change..She gave them all.. She is an angelic soul..She is as pleasant as the early morning breeze..She is as cool as a shade under the scorching Sun..She is as tender as the morning dew on the rose petal..She is consonance of happiness and a never ending smile..She is as beautiful as a stream..
She is beyond words,beyond every expression..
On this special Day..A few lines for my soulmate..

O my shona..O my love..Life is beautiful when its you..Its so refreshing when i breathe you,
Please tell me what made you love me, what made you care..what made you mine?
You have painted my life..you have touched my soul..You have sung for me the song of life..
You have made this Ordinary me feel special just because..i have you..
Life may not be the same at every step..but I promise..I would never take a back step..
I will hold you in my arms..I will wake you up with a kiss and a flower every morning..I will walk through the day holding your hand, I will feed the first bite to you..I will take every walk with you..I will sing you the goodnite song..A kiss on your eyes wishing you goodnite..I will treasure you all my life..and whatever is left undone..And things which you desired aren't met..Give me another chance next life and over and over again..
coz I have only a single wish..I want to breathe you every birth i take..
Wish you a very Happy Birthday my Life.. I love you..

what can a second mean..

yesterday @ the guest house i was placed the wrong order then today i got the wrong cab..didnt knew what was happening but something happened and my day changed entirely..as i write this i am enjoying a two min break.. the second that meant " I shook hands with Mr. Ajai Chowdhry, the co-founder of HCL " that was some feeling :-)

Getting out of my "comfort zone"

everyone likes to enjoy a comfort..life is so beautiful there,no hurdles,no hic ups every bit floats..
once i read somewhere the real test of strength and personality is when one gets out of his/her comfort zone..no wonder why i have put myself to test leaving a cushy office cube offer..i am on my way to explore the rural India,The real India..I will identify markets, research and sell technology that touches lives.. :-) I am looking forward to dwell into the real India and the demography that i have studied in my management books..I hope this will turn into a real life time experience for me..
This voyage can be a path changer..Happy Journey.. :-)

love..

"Every breath of yours..some else lives on it..
Every smile of yours..happiness for someone else..
Every Failure of yours...Defeated is someone else..
Every Victory of yours..Winner is someone else..
Every tear drop of yours..pain for some one esle..
Life of mine..Living it for someone else.. "

Unfolding..

Last one month and fifteen days has been extraordinary in every sense for me..Started with an offer from Coca Cola University which i lost due my examination schedule..I was the only one selected in my city,goes down as one of my proudest moments..but this month didn't treat me well on my emotional front i was rock bottom for no reasons, even if i had some they were self made..I got placed with 3 companies but somehow i managed zero excitement may be life has taught me enough to keep my feet on the ground, Today i am left with these words..

There was a wave of passion, I wanted to soar high

but there was an erosion of dreams

Breakdown of morale..loss of self respect

but today is the rise of the phoenix

and tears of Joy..new destinations to reach..

the strength you gave me..tireless you walked..but the journey has just begun..

Proudly i say the best thing about me is you..