Getting out of my "comfort zone"

everyone likes to enjoy a comfort..life is so beautiful there,no hurdles,no hic ups every bit floats..
once i read somewhere the real test of strength and personality is when one gets out of his/her comfort zone..no wonder why i have put myself to test leaving a cushy office cube offer..i am on my way to explore the rural India,The real India..I will identify markets, research and sell technology that touches lives.. :-) I am looking forward to dwell into the real India and the demography that i have studied in my management books..I hope this will turn into a real life time experience for me..
This voyage can be a path changer..Happy Journey.. :-)

love..

"Every breath of yours..some else lives on it..
Every smile of yours..happiness for someone else..
Every Failure of yours...Defeated is someone else..
Every Victory of yours..Winner is someone else..
Every tear drop of yours..pain for some one esle..
Life of mine..Living it for someone else.. "

Unfolding..

Last one month and fifteen days has been extraordinary in every sense for me..Started with an offer from Coca Cola University which i lost due my examination schedule..I was the only one selected in my city,goes down as one of my proudest moments..but this month didn't treat me well on my emotional front i was rock bottom for no reasons, even if i had some they were self made..I got placed with 3 companies but somehow i managed zero excitement may be life has taught me enough to keep my feet on the ground, Today i am left with these words..

There was a wave of passion, I wanted to soar high

but there was an erosion of dreams

Breakdown of morale..loss of self respect

but today is the rise of the phoenix

and tears of Joy..new destinations to reach..

the strength you gave me..tireless you walked..but the journey has just begun..

Proudly i say the best thing about me is you..

When the going gets tough..

Its been a tough one and half months for me..have understood a lot of things which i never dreamed off and lot of path breaking experiences..mostly on the personal front..which will help me lead a better life in future..The most difficult part of life is understanding others..at times one becomes a complete stranger for oneself..there are certain things in life which we look back and say...was that me? MBA slowly but surely is taking a toll on me...i just want to finish it ASAP which is of course subjected to university schedule..last couple of years has been a marathon..have learned more of personal lessons than professional ones..One of the best things i have experienced is the happiness in my mothers eyes when i won few prizes through the course..I could see it in her eyes that shes found her LKG son winning elocutions and first in class prizes..I have seen the most number of movies in a calendar year...I have grown closer to some of the key people in my life, I have learned to see the BIG picture..I have finally stopped crying :-) for useless reasons..I have learned to prioritize...In short I have started living.. :-)

Breath of my life..

I asked her -

battling through the pain..tears roll down your eyes..

Oh Please tell me what makes you cry?

Is there a relentless pain in those eyes..

What is the haze around you?

Why don't your lips broaden like before..

Why do you ogle at me tireless..

Why don't your eyes blink for a moment..

Why are you absorbed in me so much..

What do you hold in those arms of yours..

Why do you feel every heartbeat of mine..

when you know it hurts all the time..

Why do you hold my shivering hand to help me up..

and make me stand..Are you the angel i've been waiting long?

She replied - Take a deep breath and feel me inside,I am the breath of your life..

striking a chord..

Life,exams,placements,pressure,illusion,logic,heart,brain..lets go and beat them..

wake up with a smile on your face, a song on your lips...live the day with hope in your heart..do it as you will be the first to criticize it..drink a glass of happiness...take a bite of joy..cook some adventure..and live the recipe...and the most important thing "be a kid" :-)

I want to live before i die..

we all fear death i have tried to put it in words..many of you may find yourself in this short passage..if you get my communication right...its all about crossing that ocean before you die...Lance Armstrong said "The best thing ever happened to me was Cancer" and the rest is history..

no matter how hard i try...i am going to die..

a lot of blows, a lot of sigh..

tears stop rolling out of my dry eyes..

yesterday it was sunshine...today its turned grey..

but why do i fear...i have always loved the rains...

its been a long time since a drop touched me...

let me get drenched today...i want to breath some life..

before i die..I want to touch the skies before i die..

I want to unfold myself before i die..

I want to tell you mother that i always cared...

I want to tell you father i was sincere

I want to tell you sister you were always near..

I want to say the unsaid..I always Loved you dear..

but I want to cross that Ocean before i die..I am suffering from a disease called life..

because i know..no matter how hard i try i am going to die...

this part of my life "being a Loner"

life always treats you well..some admit some don't..I am a firm believer that we always get what we actually deserve..may be at times we feel dejected and ditched by life..but that idea needs to be changed..from my personal experiences of the little life i have lived..I have learnt a lot of lessons..many of my friends feel that i am a person who likes to stay aloof..to an extent its true i am not a person who loves to party around but even not One who would always say a NO...sometimes you are just not what you are...you are like water, just taking shape of the vessel you are in..

i sit inside a room...in a conversation with silence...trying to understand every bit of it...it wants to tell me so many things...it tells me leave me alone...i ask you are silence you are alone..you have no voice...you have no words..let me be with you...and i stay on and on...it doesn't reply back...time passes by...i say where have you disappeared? it doesn't respond back...then finally i decide to move out of the room...theres a voice..dare you come back again..you have disturbed me...my existence..my being..after moving out i never got back in...but i realized i was missing something..

its rightly said...the worst in life is attachment,it hurts when you loose it.The best thing in life is loneliness because it teaches you everything and when you loose it you get everything...

all i can say is..

"sometimes life doesn't leave you any options but to win and winning becomes everything"

happy birthday coffee.. :-)

birthday...your day...the day when you were born..you got life..you cried...years went by..

you touched lives..you spread happiness...you cared...you loved..you blessed..you cheered...your face radiates joy..you render bliss..today we celebrate a person who gives more than she gets..I have never seen you low..don't believe that you have no reasons to be so...but that is what you are..always cheerful..

you stand to make others smile..i admire your infinite kindness..the best thing i like about you is when you giggle :-) and when you say Chill :P

this is for a very special friend(less friend more mum)..my online coffee.. :-) feel gifted to have a friend like you..On behalf of everyone who knows you...wish you a very happy birthday! feel blessed to have met you.. thank you...

I am down but not out!

the sun doesn't wake me up..the night doesn't let me sleep..what is this indulgence?

they said don't take this blind path..you will get hurt...you are blind...you will stumble..no one will be there to hold you..i walked on and on..i got hurt..but i did not cry.. i kept a solitary tear drop forever in my eyes...the breeze braces me..the dew on the flower smiles at me...the moon in the dark sky winks at me..the still water in the lake shines at my face...adds a spark to my dream filled eyes...i have broken the thorns on my way..my feet bleeds...i can't walk anymore...it hurts i can't..may be its time to fly... :-)

hAppY vAleNtIneS dAy!

a week of romance ends..finally its valentines day! Wishing everyone in Love a beautiful day and an endless journey of never ending love..

love for me has been an unsolved mystery which i just failed to understand..i don't find myself good enough to love someone..may be i am challenged when it comes to love...i have many friends who keep talking to me about their love life and their ideas of love...it makes it even more mysterious for me...what if someday i do fall for someone...this will be my idea of this eternal bond and relationship...

I don't know the meaning of love but just trying to give a meaning to it.

I just want to hold your hand and say..i am not here to expect..i am here to give...whatever i can,I will walk with you..till you say..I am tired..when you will sit tired i would wipe every drop of sweat on your face...and fill every breath of yours with fragrance of hope..till you are ready to walk again..in this never ending journey...when there stands a demon on the way..i will close your eyes and hold you tight to chase your fear...and take you through...i might beak up,i may perish but i will be alive in your living heart...

Solace..

searching..still searching...no match found...why does it often happen? what makes me a confused soul...why i don't find solace? the answer is may be i don't want to..but certain things in life at certain moments can be path breaking..its possible that i will be left out...i will be criticized..i will loose friends..but what i should do? just follow my heart...you cannot really measure the worth of a thing,a person, an opportunity just instantly....some one once said to me you will loose a diamond while you are busy collecting stones...goes very well...today i stand at a crossroad where i have ways to go and explore...don't know which road to take and what will i get..does it really matter if i just go on enjoying the path...all roads might take me to that one destination which i desire and dream of...

paint me...

Its midnight...boring books..some online friends...feeling lousy..decided to write something...Colors..

whats your take on colors? Imagine a B/W wall...a B/W environment..Lets paint a wall..Adding colors to life..sounds great.. isn't it? who adds colors in my B/W life? friends..the lovely people around me...who share my happiness...who read the unsaid...who lend a helping hand..who is gentle..who is furious..These are my friends...my colors...can you find yourself? :-)

my first friend is BLUE - divine,understanding...too far...too high to reach just as the sky above..but always with me..always calms me down in the ruthless sun...

my second friend is YELLOW- Enlightens me...wakes me up...tells me to get my act together...tells me that I am confused...teaches me discipline..

my third friend is RED..he is my mentor..He urges me to write my own story..He says "Its all about being passionate" these are the three colors which makes my life colorful and oozing with beauty...

the dream seller..

one night i met a dream seller..i went to him and asked...what is the price of a dream..he said "why do you ask,will you be able to pay? I said I will try...He asked me three questions..

who are you ? wasn't asking my name...

what do you do? wasn't asking my profession..

what do you want? I said i want to live my dream..for that you will have to sell it to me...he insisted you wont be able to pay the price...he said don't chase your dreams...stop dreaming...start living..Find answers to the first couple of questions i asked...then come to me...I don't sell dreams..

I just sell a moment...which comes free...I sell because its you who pays the price...I stared surprised...what price? You pay your time chasing me...rather living that moment which comes for free and the dream which is priceless...

Endless...

What is friendship and who is my friend? What is Love? A journey or a destination? the happiness of meeting someone or the bliss of waiting for that special one? I watched Antaheen yesterday...the movie bagged the national award for the best film..a beautiful movie with an anticlimax but it justifies the title of the movie..who is your special one? the one whom you meet everyday in college,workplace or the one whom u haven't seen yet..the one whom you feel you can do anything for or the one who keeps up late in the night only for you because you are not well..without even knowing you..One expects things in a particular way...he/she never likes the way you are...the way you act...the way you care...your concern..and theres the one who never expects..and when you are down,just stands by you silently and whispers in your ears..hey i am here... don't worry..why do we feel like sharing everything to a person we have never met...the rarest things which we never shared to ourselves...but Do we fear that special friend will also dislike us..when we actually meet them in person? Are we really up for it...Do we really want to meet that friend or just walk endless with him/her..without even getting a touch...this friend understands even the slightest variation in your mood..and keeps on asking you until you admit that theres some problem..This friend of yours have never seen you but can see the spark in your eyes..can see the dream in your eyes...all she wants is a smile on your face...which she tells you is priceless...She lives every happy moment of yours..She tells you that you are a gem even if u don't consider yourself one..You might never meet that person...as in the movie they never meet...but that friend that special one lives and lives on forever in the most secured shelter on this planet..Your Heart...Do you really want to meet the person whom you live with..each moment of your life... :-)

Happiness = f (ego,desire,expectations)

where

f(ego) = void

f(desire) = dreams

f(expectations) = fatal

walk with me...

why should i learn to walk alone..

why do i always look up to someone..

I wont because when i did..

I got hurt..I cried...I fell down..

I thought i would never get up..

but eventually i did..to stand tall and walk alone...

with hope and passion in my heart..to announce

Here I am...Up Shadow was never my best friend..

it left me in the dark..but here I am Up..I cant see anything..

and i don't want to..just want to walk through this blind path..to explore,

to find what is destined for me which has to beautiful... :-)

thanking a friend...

You kept me up..

You kept me awake...

You made me smile..

You knew when i was down..my smileys didn't work...

You still knew i was down...

You made me sing..

You made me laugh..

You made me cook..

You made me eat..

You made me forget..

You were low..but

You kept me alive... :-)

The Number Game

you can't ever run away from numbers..Can you? from school to college to your workplace its all a numbers game..second semester results are out and i failed once again..i had set a target of 74 percent this semester but ended up with 71..Does that make a difference? Yes it does 73.9 would have meant that i had failed to achieve the set target...Ask the topper of my batch she will tell you how badly she will remember 6 in her life she missed the University top spot by a whisker..6 marks short..She will go on to achieve bigger numbers in life but this is something which will always haunt her..Ask an athlete and he will tell you the most important thing in his life is Numbers..

no matter how much we talk about excellence, success, performance but the fact is Everything in this world is measured in terms of NUMBERS..

GO!!

empathizing is easy...motivating others,few words of encouragement,making one feel that he/she can achieve anything desired and get the best out of everything and live the best possible life..but its the toughest when it comes to motivating oneself..when you feel rock bottom you don't know which end to look up to...which path to follow..what to do...how to console...how to act..how to keep moving..why does it happen? why cant we be our best motivators..why cannot we look up to ourselves and say...yes buddy you are the one...you can get the best in Life...just go for it...

Garlic paste..

Coughing all day?? lets do something get some...this comes from a more of mum less friend..

Garlic ka paste bana lo...take some in a spoon and heat it.. add some honey and have it 5-6 times in a day and dont drink or eat anything for 15 mins once you take it...Boy thats something...i had it once and to the best of her knowledge...but it worked :D

not again...

another player in the market..what does the customer have in terms of choice? price,price and only price...this time its 29p/sec...the new entrant is Unitech...Uninor is the next buzz word...the real estate player from India gets along with telenor the sixth largest player in the world and tries to make a mark in the ever rising indian mobile space but what are differentiators? awaits to be seen

what else does the Indian customer looks for apart from the call tariffs..Is the customer such volatile that he will get the Service provider changed every time he finds a new provider with a few paise slashed tariffs?

lazy afternoon...

a song..one sms...boring library...slow i-net...super didi..itchy weather...some juniors arnd...to keep me alive... All izzz well.... :-)

3Is

A movie for one and all...the message is beautifully put in a neat way..the movie sends a current across..it leaves you thinking..it makes you laugh it makes you cry it makes you celebrate

the most puzzled puzzle i.e Life...The real story for me unfolds when in the second half you discover Aamir's identity...the concept of the movie is much talked about these days..what career one should choose and the never ending debate "Grades" define Success but what makes this movie special is the way its conveyed to the audience..my didi says she would have loved the movie a bit more if the characters were played by younger people..40+ playing teens...but for me its absolutely fine..all the 3 idiots have done a marvelous job..its a must watch...but its pity that controversies have followed this amazing creation...Who should be Credited?they say success has many fathers..i think the audience is wise enough to understand who should get the accolades...

Smiling coffee

sometimes life gives you some great reasons to smile..things happen when you really don't anticipate them..my online coffee is back..its come back in more flavors than before..

it holds a bright smile on the face smooth.. tender..with a dip of cream adding to its charisma..it comes straight out of an hot pan just to make me smile..its stirred over and over all day..but when the night falls it gets back and asks me how was the day? with a bright smile..i reply the day was as smooth as you..it never complains it never has a bad day or may be it never lets me know..because it just appears to make me smile for a second then it wakes me up in the morning..greets me Have a smooth day.. :-)

Just like that...

what you expect you don't get

what you get you don't desire

what you desire is not what you deserve

what you deserve you don't seek

what you seek you never get

what you actually get

You never value

What you value it deserts you...